Wednesday, August 14, 2013

When All Else Fails - Trust God!

Lord knows there are those days when the scales of sanity are weighed down by those storms you don't see coming.  But Lord I am asking, praying, hoping, and putting my trust in you.  On this day I am praying for the strength to keep my head held high.  To be a rock for my family for where they are weak.  Lord knows I wanted to drown my sorrows last night in a bottle of wine.  However, I am glad I had the eternal strength to let it go.

Some news we could never prepare ourselves for.  Out of love and respect for those impacted I won't publicize the source of my pain.  Lord you know my heart and I ask that you not only comfort my heart but comfort theirs as well.  This too shall past.  It is times like these which will draw us nearer to you.  We put our trust in you. 

I remember during the most tumultuous times in my life when I shared my pain with my grandmother she would always say "Trust God".  Lord today I am trusting in you to relieve this hurt and pain in my heart.  It is always so hard when good people are faced with tough blows life sometimes delivers.  The punch has been thrown and the pain has been felt.  Lord on this day I ask you to mend and heal the hearts impacted.  Lord heal the bodies where they are weak and strengthen them.  Lord I am asking on this day that you touch this situation.  I know you can step in at the 11th hour and perform a miracle.  Lord we need more miracle delivering grace.

Let the joy of salvation override the underlying emotions I have of being mad, hurt, upset, angry, frustrated, pissed off, tired, disgruntled, confused, overwhelmed, discouraged.  Lord I really need to trust in you today to get through this.  Sleeping last night was like sleeping on a bed of nails.  I can draw strength from that because it reminds me you were nailed to the cross for us.

On this day I pray you give me the strength to make it through the day.  Every time I think about it makes me feel powerless.  I want to hold him and her and say everything is going to be alright, God has this.  But I can't stop crying myself.  I hate seeing bad things happen to good people.  Lord I know it may be a test of faith and right now I'm failing miserably.  Thank goodness I had the peace and solitude to be alone last evening. God it hurts.  When the people you love go through things you can touch or help them with it hurts.  It is an awful feeling of powerlessness.  I need to be strong for them.  My heart is heavy.  What keeps coming to mind is the Bible verse: 

"when I call to remembrance the unfeigned faith that is in thee, which dwelt first in thy grandmother Lois, and thy mother Eunice and,I am persuaded, is in thee also." --2 Timothy 1:5 21st Century King James Version.
  Lord I need the unfeigned faith, the strength to deal with situations that seem impossible, the power from within to deal with this. 

I'll be praying and praising you today Lord not only for the things that are going wrong.  I will be sending up praise because at times like these it is a painful reminder that maybe I haven't sent up enough praise for all the things that have gone right.  Lord I need you.

The advice my Grandmother Lois would always give me when things were going right or wrong was "Trust God.  He knows all, he sees all and everything is going to be alright."

Lord I'm powerless, I'm praying for you to make things right.  You're a miracle worker and our family is in need of a couple of miracles right now.