It Hit Me Like A Thousand Midnights!

I have been working out with my work out partner with the main goal being her losing weight.  Well today I received some very devastating news.  She has hypothyroidism.  Her weight problem in all probability is not due to her lifestyle it is due to medical reasons.  By lifestyle I mean eating habits, exercise, and weight management initiatives.

Last week I had begun to feel like a failure. We have been following the same routines. On top of that she is a lot more active than me and she was not losing weight.  I was wondering what was wrong.  She didn't appear to be eating a whole lot.  She was exercising much more but the weight was increasing instead of decreasing.

Well the answer came in the mail today with the results of the blood work done during her last doctor visit, she was hypothyroidism.  What a shame.  My heart sunk and I cried.

Sometimes I wonder how life can deal such a blow to a child who doesn't even really understand all that goes with it.  My heart goes out to her.

Now we know the diagnosis, the prognosis is to keep pushing forward to a miraculous weight management regimen utilizing proven methods based on what we now know.  She will take her medicines as prescribed and grandma will probably need a new heart because this one has silently bled to death with such a disappointing setback internally is how I'm feeling right now.  I have a small pity party break.  Breathe.  Breathe.  Breathe.

I am thankful we do know what the cause of the weight is now.  We were always puzzled because she is very athletic.  She can ball when it comes to basketball.  She loves to swim, run, ride her bike, skate, play, jump rope, and have fun.  I can say she has really not let the weight be an issue for her.  In fact, she is fine with her size. 

They say their is no pain or sorrow heaven cannot heal.  I am a believer and this pain and sorrow shall pass.  The devil definitely knows how to hit you in your weakest hour.  I will be prayerful that the Lord will not place on me more than I can bare.  It's how not to worry.  This child is beautiful.  I keep thinking back to how everyone thought I had taken a picture of a porcelain doll when I was showing off her first set of professional baby photos.   I couldn't believe God had blessed me with someone so perfect in my eyes.  Whatever I did to warrant it I have always been truly grateful and appreciative. 


I don't give a crap about most all the other stuff that has happened to me in my lifetime but I care about this.  They say when life deals you lemons turn it into lemonade.  This lemonade is bittersweet right now but it is going to turn out to be acclaimed as an award winning pitcher.