Why is it we often take for granted the things in life which come easy? I was raised in the Church but over the past seven years I have hardly ever gone. There have been bouts when I go on a regular basis.
I think with me it was mainly due to grief. All the things which were happening which were lowering my belief in self. Never once did I ever stop doubting the strength of the Lord. He is who has carried me through all the trials and tribulations in my life. I remember times when I was so low emotionally after having come through it I know it was only by the grace of God. At times it seems like I was nudge into girl go ahead and do thus and such. When people speak of God being Omnipresent. I know the meaning.
I'll never forget June 2008. So many things happened that month. If there was one pivotal time in my life when life had its toll on me that was the month. If you have read my blogs you would know it was the month I was on death's door. I had just given up by being overwhelmed by everything that was happening and I was ready to let fate have its course with my life and my health. My father died that month. My son was incarcerated that month. My mother was still suffering with her illness that she is still dealing with almost 40 years in the wilderness now. I was living by myself then as I am now. But through it all I had been more of a church goer. Church was the thing that revitalized me every Sunday.
Today is one of those days when my soul really needs rejuvenation. It hurts really badly when you have friends and family pick up the phone and can call you and ask you for anything and if they are in need you will turn heaven and earth to try and help or assist them with the best you have to offer. When you are in need they do not answer.
I'll say shame on me rather than shame on them. I haven't been as true as I should be to the one friend I have always had through the ups and the downs. During any stress or duress. I haven't been true and committed to the friend I have in Jesus.
Maybe going through things which are really nominal, things we can really handle ourselves because of all the favor God has shown us we take for granted. Sometimes we need some very vivid reminders.
So on today I need to go to the altar and pray that the Lord remove this taste of bitterness in my soul. And rejoice in the fact that he has been my friend all along. I've been the jerk. Lose my jerkiness in put my faith in strength in Him. He was the alpha and the omega.
Lord I pray on this day you will lift this monkey off my back so I can move on with peace, love, and understanding. Do as you say and put faith in no man but in you. Be reminded of the old spiritual song that Momma may have, Poppa may have but God bless the child who has their own.
Thank you Lord for never leaving me and never forsaking me. I realize that I need to keep my joy to keep you. You work when we work. Your cleansing is better than any kind of cleaning I could ever pay for. I need a spiritual cleansing. I want to smile always and for people to see your hold on me is strong no matter what goes wrong.
I'm claiming today and every day to be uplifted. My goal is to hear, "well done, my good and faithful servant." I don't need to get even. I've learned through the things I've suffered vengeance belongs to the Lord. I don't need nor wish for other people to suffer for me to succeed. I know God's got me.
I'm a believer, the best kind of cleansing is free. Free one's mind of all the negative stuff, all the bitter stuff, all the thoughts and processes which bind and put a stronghold on one for the worst, everything which is not pleasing in God's site. Get a spiritual cleansing is free, for me it has always been free. It will lift you up when you down and handle life's crazy turnarounds.
I think with me it was mainly due to grief. All the things which were happening which were lowering my belief in self. Never once did I ever stop doubting the strength of the Lord. He is who has carried me through all the trials and tribulations in my life. I remember times when I was so low emotionally after having come through it I know it was only by the grace of God. At times it seems like I was nudge into girl go ahead and do thus and such. When people speak of God being Omnipresent. I know the meaning.
I'll never forget June 2008. So many things happened that month. If there was one pivotal time in my life when life had its toll on me that was the month. If you have read my blogs you would know it was the month I was on death's door. I had just given up by being overwhelmed by everything that was happening and I was ready to let fate have its course with my life and my health. My father died that month. My son was incarcerated that month. My mother was still suffering with her illness that she is still dealing with almost 40 years in the wilderness now. I was living by myself then as I am now. But through it all I had been more of a church goer. Church was the thing that revitalized me every Sunday.
Today is one of those days when my soul really needs rejuvenation. It hurts really badly when you have friends and family pick up the phone and can call you and ask you for anything and if they are in need you will turn heaven and earth to try and help or assist them with the best you have to offer. When you are in need they do not answer.
I'll say shame on me rather than shame on them. I haven't been as true as I should be to the one friend I have always had through the ups and the downs. During any stress or duress. I haven't been true and committed to the friend I have in Jesus.
Maybe going through things which are really nominal, things we can really handle ourselves because of all the favor God has shown us we take for granted. Sometimes we need some very vivid reminders.
So on today I need to go to the altar and pray that the Lord remove this taste of bitterness in my soul. And rejoice in the fact that he has been my friend all along. I've been the jerk. Lose my jerkiness in put my faith in strength in Him. He was the alpha and the omega.
Lord I pray on this day you will lift this monkey off my back so I can move on with peace, love, and understanding. Do as you say and put faith in no man but in you. Be reminded of the old spiritual song that Momma may have, Poppa may have but God bless the child who has their own.
Thank you Lord for never leaving me and never forsaking me. I realize that I need to keep my joy to keep you. You work when we work. Your cleansing is better than any kind of cleaning I could ever pay for. I need a spiritual cleansing. I want to smile always and for people to see your hold on me is strong no matter what goes wrong.
I'm claiming today and every day to be uplifted. My goal is to hear, "well done, my good and faithful servant." I don't need to get even. I've learned through the things I've suffered vengeance belongs to the Lord. I don't need nor wish for other people to suffer for me to succeed. I know God's got me.
I'm a believer, the best kind of cleansing is free. Free one's mind of all the negative stuff, all the bitter stuff, all the thoughts and processes which bind and put a stronghold on one for the worst, everything which is not pleasing in God's site. Get a spiritual cleansing is free, for me it has always been free. It will lift you up when you down and handle life's crazy turnarounds.
